The Minimalist Diary

"We may be in a pseudo-relationship but my feelings for you were real." I once quoted after the days of being indenial, fear overpowered desires and while my philosophy in life contradicts the situation. But I take the risk with you. I get tired standing firm with my decision knowing what my heart wants from the very start. I get tired pretending to be a good friend  willing to give you the advice a good friend will supply when your heart is falling apart, when all I am is a 'lover' wanting to collect the shattered pieces of your broken heart and try to fix it or just accept it as it is. Too risky. To fall in love to a man who is imprisoned in the past. To try entering a heart whom is owned by someone else. To take advantage of his vulnerability by taking chances by pursuing. To play damn fool making herself believe that he'll see your worth in the near future. To fall in love to a man who's so much in love to his first love you don't know if he&

I never thought that stories like them would really exist in reality. Where two people can actually end and start their day talking nonsense but having the best time of their everyday. A story entitled "23:11" exist in a so-called application, WATTPAD, about a writer and a weirdo stranger who happens to be having conversation every night when 23:11 or 11:11pm knock. In us, we're kinda different and alike in some sense. We do know each other personally, since elementary. But never talked like some good friends. We're classmates, yes but its just that. I think we just have different world that time. I mean different group of friends, hobbies and the likes that is why we never talk to each other like this. Messenger. An application where two people communicate through chat. Who would have thought that feelings are impossible to be developed in such kind of an application. Well, we prove it is possible. We started as you know, like some sort of strangers. Getting to

God knows how I want to have a good relationship with my brother but it seems like it was the hardest thing to achieve in my life. I can deal with my nagger mother, learned to listen inspite my hate for the topic being discussed, how I hate seeing how insecure she is to others and how she can't move on from the past. I already learned to love her imperfections but my brother's evilness, I just can't. Am I to blame for all of this? Is this my karma ? Am I not a good 'Ate' ? I've tried. God knows how I tried so hard to be good, to be the best Ate I can be to him. Am I this bad to deserve this? Of all people I've known, he's the one I'm expecting to care. The one I should be counting on things I cannot handle. He should be the one protecting me yet I found him the greatest rival I would have to deal for a lifetime. I'm getting tired. Getting tired of being disrespected, getting tired of not believing in, getting tired of dealing with such evilness

"The one who follows the crowd will usually get no further than the crowd. The one who walks alone,  is likely to find himself in places no one has ever been. "  - Albert Einstein I always have a say to something yet I learned to stay silent. Why?  I just know that mine will not be accepted, they won't hear me anyways. Why? I am different. I always have the unique answers to questions, weird or serious it is always different. Example: They love: KathNiel I hate them. I love JaDine & AlDub. They don't like them. So what ? Who has the beautiful faces,  character and lots of achievements than making people kilig. They can also do it effortlessly. They want ABS-CBN over GMA Network. Oh!  They love the BIAS network whose always making things worse than fixing them. Nga naman!  Ano ibabalita nila kung maayos naman na pala ang lahat? Hha. Shame on their integrity.

This is a Comment from Ms. Angelika Rose Reyes to GMA Network as they featured AlDub. :) ALDUB achievements : -may guiness world record for 41M tweets -may consistent million tweets every day -may recognition from Twitter Asia CEO -may recognition ng Twitter sa AlDub aniversary by launching a special hashtag emoji na bihira lang gawin ng twitter inc. first ever in southeast asia -may highest rating for noontime show -nakapuno ng Philippine Arena -nakapag sold out ng worlds largest indoor arena in one day -may highest opening grossing film -pinagkaguluhan ng over sa mmff -may pinakamaraming endorsements at about 60 of them -may rare awards like awards from the catholic church -may international awards like Nickelodeon Teen Choice Awards, Asian TV awards -featured sa magazine ng sobrang daming beses each brand -featured sa rarely featuring magazines like Cosmo, Readers' Digest, and Forbes -top 1 most beautiful stars of 2016 ng Yes! Magazine -featured sa i

I just wanna say that I gave up. Yes, I gave up on expecting people would act the same as I act towards them. I gave up trying to kill myself so many times, my mother never knew. I gave up because it seems like nothing worked, really. I'm still here. I gave up hurting myself. Yes, I've tried that many times and it's so bad because I used to do it before going to sleep but it never fixed anything. It just made things worse. And I gave up expecting people to stay, to care. I'm used to being alone but that doesn't mean I want that for life. It just seems like I'm liking until I die. Without hope in life, I already lost faith in humanity.

This is my Sanctuary of words. May people like it or not of me sharing my life in this page, I wouldn't care enough for it serves as my own meditation from a drunken and miserable life. Depression has its own ways of ruining someone's life. I won't let that happen. I maybe emotionally impaired but I am strong, I am brave, I grew up well, equip with the values and strength to cope up every challenges that come into my life. I choose to have no choice but to fight my own emotions, alone or with someone. Its better to fight with someone but I guess I wouldn't want someome to suffer with me. So instead, I choose to suffer my own battle with me.

"Be thrilled to be alone. Take a hiatus from Warm Bodies everywhere and work on finding your happy before you ever try to offer yourself to another person again. Know what you’re willing to give to someone else, and make sure you take inventory of all of your bits and pieces before you go offering them to anyone else." (c) Wait for the One who deserves you

"9. You can make things happen alone. You can get your dream job or buy that house or travel to this country without anyone’s help or approval. When you are growing up without being committed to someone, you truly have the world in your hands and you can just do whatever you want and become whoever you want. Being independent is a wonderful thing that will make you rich in so many ways. In this day and age, being single is actually a privilege — depending on the way you look at it." (c) Idol Queen

When I learn to feel, I learn to distance myself to people who's not giving importance to my existence. I learn to value the things that came from my own hardwork. I learn to keep my thoughts as private as I can because I know they wouldn't care too when I share. I learned to be patient when someone is trying to delay my success in appearance and good faith. I learned not to mind those people who's making me feel small and I have learned to love myself when I feel like no one is there to make me feel that I'm not alone. I learned to be in a world full of laughter, adventures and hype with my own self. It's kinda crazy, Yes. But that is when I found my kind of peacefulness in my soul. Only God knows how I struggle the pain of being alone, alone.