REALTALK
I don't know what's worse, me pretending that I had moved on from the trauma or me realizing I am punishing myself. 🥺🥺 Whenever I saw a vid of a couple I wish we could be, I couldn't held but shred some tears because realistically that wouldn't happen. For 4 years, I already know what I allow him to do with us,with our relationship. Siguro tinanggap ko nalang na "Ito nalang tlga siguro ang deserved ko." And then I would go back to his phrases, "You will never find someone who could love you and treat you the way I used to." Ninong passed away yesterday morning. The only reason I got not to hate the place completely. The place where all the memories,good and bad, actually happened. Gusto kong paniwalain ang sarili ko na okay na ako. For the past 6 years, ang OA ko na kung hindi padin mawala ang sakit. It is not the hurt that haunting me,it is the consequences of my actions. I let go kasi naduwag ako. I let go kasi feeling ko nabetray ako. I let go