The Minimalist Diary

Messy hair, oily face, dry skin, scars and flaws I had, I'm imperfect inside and out. Short-tempered often lead into a tiger growling and a heart melting thereafter. Words that comes out in my mouth often became mistakes and regrets. I'm sorry for being like this, Imperfect and with flaws. I'm insecure, lack of confidence and don't know where I'm good in. I can't tell anybody where I am good co'z I'm afraid to be put in shame when I failed. Despite of this things, I never have imagined in my life that I'll find someone like him. He accepts me wholeheartedly, accepts me for whatever insecurities I have. I am this grateful knowing there exist a person who can kiss me on the forehead while sweat is falling, able to kiss me on the cheek when my face is so sticky and hugs me like I don't smell a foul from all the tiring day activities I've been involved in. For my boy bestfriend who would have take selfies with me when I'm at my 'h

When an almost perfect relationship end up, the blame is always put on the boy. Is that really fair ? When after all, he also has a feeling? Whether he falls out of love, cheated on her or dumped her, he one's love her too. I loved and been hurt. Give everything yet it still wasn't good enough. Felt cheated on but give trust once more. Yes ! There's a regret. I am not that fool to make myself believe I wasn't hurt after all. Yet, I listen and had prayed to God, whatever happens after this, I wish to retain the old us. Yes, I know there will always be some scars left but I realized it is the best way to keep us. After all, nothing could beat the BESTFRIENDSHIP I had with him. Still, the best memories I'll surely treasured for the rest of my life is with him. If things didn't go complicated, I'll still choose him. Yes! Tell me I'm a bitch for being so much in love with a guy who has been MARRIED NOW. He supposed to be mine. I'm supposed to be the o

I'm always OUTDATED. ALONE. Left-behind. Out of Place. Not Belonged. And always a SECOND. But what makes me standing still strong is that GOD is with me always. i feel him in many ways. He's guidance, his grace and love. I always find myself marching on my own drum, cared by people I thought would leave me when Hard times comes and Loved by someone who will never fall out of love of me whoever comes in his love. I am always blessed with the perfect timing, beauty, opportunities and courage. Atleast I have reasons to live. :) I've been tough through times. GAin confidence and self-esteem that makes me weak before. I am his Precious Daughter whatever happens. I am Loved and accompanied by his soul when I feel like no one wants to be with me. I'll survive. I have him. I know. I'll never lose any fight with him. I Love You my Lord. My Saviour. My strength and my everything. Today I offer my heart and soul into you.I'll trust and loved you. Please always