Depression has No Face
So it is indeed true that when you feel it, there would be no sign when and why are you feeling it. Depression could kill as they say. But in as of writing, I'm not thinking about it. I'm still thinking. My brain still remembers what I had promised, Never Again. It has been a rough month for me. Going the same routine day by day. I want to do something but I don't know what that is. I want to have something ( my dream house ) but I know my resources can't purchase it yet. I want to be somewhere, somewhere I felt loved and belong and I know exactly where it was. I am suffocated in this area, can't even have the courage to see the sun rise like I used to when I'm at somewhere I consider home even if it wasn't mine by title. How low can I feel more? I have things and features somebody out there would want to have but I'm not happy anymore. I lost my every plan on what to do everyday, like I haven't set any goals. Or I have but can't execute