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What it takes

As I was looking for my notes to review, a small notebook came to my attention. I remember myself having a big obsession on papers and pens that I write randomly whatever comes in my mind. I brought it here in Lomeda House remembering that I wrote lots of motivational quotes in here coming from social media sites and the books I read. Unknowingly, as I scan the pages of the notebook, a diary entry dated on the 17th of January 2016 came up. I can freshly remember how I come up to such entry. Let me share to you the story behind the notebook and some of its content. “It’s okay to lose people but never lose yourself.” The 1st page of the notebook has this quote. I have a class in the evening on that day. It was a marketing class if I am not mistaken. I didn’t come to the class even if it was just a few walks from my boarding house. Yes! I was living just in front of NCF that time. Alone, I wasted time and money going to centro buying some stuffs and groceries to stock. I went to Hon

And I think of 'it' again

Friday the 13th. I started off the day feeling excited and feeling that kilig bcoz 'This is it! I'm graduating!'. I had to sleep early last night and woke up early today so I won't miss anything. And though I awaken with a pain coz by a pimple in my in my nose, I still feel alive. Pictorial goes Fun and Beautiful and Elegance flaunted inside the studio. I love the groupies, of course. We all do love groupies coz that what binds BSAs and my TROPA. On the other hand, I was feeling uneased on the inside. I know I've been lacking today. I didn't get to response quickly on messages, even that one coming from my Mom. I know its bad but please do understand that I treasure every moment I spend with my Love ones. I don't want to ruin my time with any one. I don't start up arguments. I suck at them actually. I hate them coz I know it would just awaken that 'thought' again. And so it happened. All was okay. All was fun until I was triggered to burst