Another Year of Bestfriendship without YOU

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Hi! Alam kong STALKER kita at binubuksan mo parin mga accounts ko kaya mababasa mo to.. hopefully. I don't wanna sound hypocrite and all knowing na ako naman tlga ang may kasalanan kaya we are not in good terms.. for years! :( Pero I still want you to know that no matter what happened between us, I still treasure and treat you as my great great BESTFRIEND. 7 YEARS Sungit! 7 YEARS kitang laging kaaway. 7 YEARS mo akong nabully,... nasesermonan, nababatukan and all.. Hindi naman siguro ganun kadaling kalimutan yun diba? When half of my Life, you've been there..playing all the roles a male could be.

You loathe me, I know. I'm giving you all the right to continue hating me. Ako may kasalanan kaya wala ako makausap, wala akong maiyakan, wala akong punching bag pagnagrarant na ako at wala ng kumukontra sa lahat ng sinasabi ko. Namimiss lang naman kita, Bespren. Kaaway, Tatay, Kuya, o Boyfriend man kita, ikaw parin si SUNGIT ko na tinanggap ako kahit ang pangit-pangit ko, ang dungis ko, ang baho ko at walang pakialam kahit ikaw na mukhang model at ako mukhang gusgusin pagmagkasama tayo.
MEAN GIRL mo ako? OO. Ako parin to. Pero MAS MEAN KA!!!
Kasi diba sabi mo hinding-hindi na ako makakahanap pa ng isang katulad mo? Geh, magbunyi ka! Kasi .. TOTOO! Isinumpa mo yan diba? Pero nakalimutan mo atang AKO SI MEAN GIRL mo at ikaw si RETARDED ko. Kaya ito, hindi ko sinasabing TOTALLY nakamove on na ako kasi naiisip parin naman kita from time to time. Kaya nga di ako makahanap ng boyfriend e kasi sinira mo lahat ng lalaki sa paningin ko pero naisip ko .. isinumpa mong hinding-hindi na ako makakahanap ng isang tulad mo? Edi maghanap ng hindi katulad mo! You are my happiness, you make me smile and I had my best moments with you but my happiness is my choice right? I used to be miserable when you're gone and I get used to the pain yet it's just for a while. I only escape my reality so when it hits me, it hits me hard!

Mahal mo naman ako diba? Sana kung maging masaya man ulit ako, ipaubaya mo na. This is not selfishness. This is a reward i gave to myself after enduring all the pain I bear after letting you go. I did the right thing naman diba? Masaya kana ngayon. Sana ako naman ngayon.

Bestfriend, katabi ko nga pala kanina Ate mo. Alam ko hindi lang ikaw ang nawala sakin nung pinagtulakan kita sakanya. Pati rin siya, si Tito, si Tita, sina Vince at ang buong barkada mo. May choice ba ako nun? MERON. ALAM KO. Pero kasi ang bata pa natin e. Kaya pinili ko yung sa tingin ko tama. Sana mapatawad mo na ako.

 HAPPY BESTFRIENDS DAY ! Sana next year okay na tayo. I miss you SUNGIT.

Your MEAN GIRL.

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