Enough

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Enough

"I know my worth. I know my self-value. Things I can tolerate and can't tolerate."- Julia Barreto.

I came to this point where I know I just can't let it go easily but I'm tired suddenly.

It has been months of all the joyous and happy moments that we've been together and I know I made the right decision of letting myself fall in love to this guy. I am happy, contented and I felt loved, once again. I've given my trust because he earns it and I committed myself, once more. Things I thought would never happened again after Rhenzo.

But here we are, we're okay.
Okay to the point that we know we're in love. We're on the right timing and approved.

Not until today.
Not until I felt like I once again being taken-for-granted for being so forgivable.

Nakakagago.

It's been months since I last blog and all was good. As you can see I'm doing well.

But I am not perfect. I have a temper to control, I have  issues within myself, I have patience to extend, I have insecurities that needs acceptance and I'm willing to sacrifice just to satisfy once's emotional need, even if that involves my whole day.

But again, I AM NOT PERFECT.
I know when enough is enough.

Hindi ko sinayang yung ilang taon kong pagkalugmok at pagbangon muli, matutunang mahalin ang sarili bago ang iba para lang baliwalain ng ganito.

Kung ito man ang karma ko dahil sa pagbitaw ko sakanya, tatanggapin ko nalang na HINDING-HINDI na ako muli makakahanap pa ng isang katulad niya. Mas gugustuhin ko pang mag-isa kesa magstay sa relasyong mas mahalaga pa ang iba sakanya kesa sa Girlfriend niyang buong araw naghihintay sa pagbabalik niya.

Sabi ko na e. Masama ang umasa. Masamang umasa na ikaw ang dahilan ng pagbabalik niya. Masamang umasa na uunahin ka niya kesa sa mga barkada niya. Masamang umasa dahil una palang alam ko na ang dahilan ng paghihiwalay nila. Ngayon, naiintindihan ko. Naiintindihan ko na.

Kaya Mahal, hindi ko alam kung kaya ko pa.

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