Keeping the Faith

Worrying is believing that God won't get it right. ‪Learn to trust God even when you don't understand Him. ‬

I can still remember how I questioned his power and righteousness before when I lose in an academic contest. I feel the pang in my chest,the hard breathing and angst towards all the possibilities of winning he didn't gave my victory. I am bitter.

Now after gaining the confidence I work for years and rebuilding the faith I once lost, everything has changed. From the way I think things would turn out to be up to accepting things when it turns out to be the other way around, far from what I expected it would be.

I'm feeling down from time to time. Sometimes I even forget why am I doing this. Always asking myself on how long I could still stand strong. That times when I just want to lounge in my bed and had all the day being there, doing nothing.

And when I least expected, surprises came up.
That is when I realized my faith is still on question. How many times do miracles should happen before I believe in him before I worry a lot.

Things happen for a reason. I am responsible for the actions. Yet, the outcome is still on his mercy and grace.

I shouldn't worry.
I am his precious daughter.
I am loved, always and blessed more than what I want from him.

When things go wrong, he strengthens me.
When feeling sad, he embraces me.
When I don't know what to do, he guides me.
When times like this happen, he surprises me.

So who am I to question his plan?
I will be strong. Stay strong in faith and he fixes everything. That is how everything goes.

Worrying should be less than trusting him.