Introvertedness

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I always ask myself every now and then "What do I really want to do with my life?"

Yes. I do have dreams. I set short-term and long-term goals for myself and for my growth. I read and travel every now and then only to satisfy my societal needs. I did things to fight my own fears and continuously explore things I don't usually give a damn before.

I love tranquility. The ambiance of being in a deserted place, a nature specially. I enjoyed things that gives me peace.

And yes! I am an introvert by nature.

People tend to misunderstood my perspectives. Thinking I'm such a snob and of high maintenance or anti-social. Without further arguments, I don't hate people. I'm not anti-social. I can be with people but I can't stay long having conversations with them. Yes I am loud! But I can be loud only if I feel like I needed to be heard. I get irritated easily, especially by people who are only good at talking.

I am different. And I love that. I love how I established my own name, my image and my personality. I am proud to be unique and not a copy-cat. A lady with a mind and not just a 'pretty face'. I can be boustful and proud at times but that is only when I'm around people who loves to brag themselves to me only to make me feel I'm small and weak and I love the satisfaction it brought into my nerves when I slam them the line 'I'm still better than you so quit bragging. YOU CAN'T BE ME, in whatever ways'.

And Yes! I can be that b*tch sometimes.

Tired of pleasing people who don't deserve my attention, I quit pretending to be just fine. I started telling the truth infront of them. You can be mad at me and 'so what?' atleast I have the courage to say straight to your face that I don't like what you've been doing or how your attitude is irritating me. I can't be that 'nice little girl' all the time.

I live for my dreams. I live for my truth. I live to serve my one true God. 😇 And I live to be ME.

And that is my own reason for being.

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