The Minimalist Diary

Ang pagmomove-on daw ay paghihintay sa isang panahon na hindi mo alam kung kailan darating. Walang specific method. Walang definite date. Walang kasiguraduhan. Kaya sa mga taong nagsasabing KAARTEHAN nalang yan kung abutin ka pa ng taon sa pagmomove-on, siguro ay mababaw lang yung LOVE na naibigay niyo para sa isa't-isa para masabing madali lang ang pagmomove-on. Sabi nga rin sa Psychology class namin before, with a span of 3 weeks ay dapat moved on kana. Abnormal kung lalampas kapa dun. Kumbaga, yun na yung pinakalimit. Dapat ba talaga ganun kadai ang pagmomove-on ? Easier said than done. The bitterest point in Love is when the happy moments they spent with each other turns out into something they want to disremember. Oo. Part ng pagmomove-on ang KABITTER-AN ! Kaya wag kang epokrita para sabihing kailanman ay hindi ka nakaramdam ng pagka-Bitter nung naghiwalay kayo. Maliban nalang kung hindi niyo naman talaga minahal ang isaa't-isa. Trip-trip na relasyon lang kumbaga. Pero...

Masarap pala sa pakiramdam na dumadaan abg isang babae sa normal na proseso ng panliligaw. Yung alam mong may isang taong nagpupursiging makuha ang loob mo. Nakikita mo yung effort niya. nararamdaman mong may malaking chance na mahulog ang loob mo sa taong yun. malinaw, klaro at hindi kailangang hulaan kung nasaang estado na kayo. Walang masyadong tanong. Alam mo kung paano kayo nagsimula, naeexpect mo ang mga turning points. May pressure, Oo, pero kaya mong i-handle. Hawak mo ang desisyon kung maglelevel-up na kayo o tuloy pa rin ba kayo sa 'getting to know each other ' stage.

I've been judged for all my life, destroyed and rebuild myself once more, put in shame and regain my confidence, and belittle by people who doesn't now anything about me but prove to them I am a better version of them. Now tell me ? Should I be weak this time? I've been through a lot of things, proved myself and stand still. These things would never make me fall down, never again. For I am strong with God's love and guidance. I'll be someone to be proud of. SOON. #SUCCESS

To Boys, "Normal nga lang ba na kahit in a relationship na kayo eh nagkakagusto pa rin kayo sa iba? ( except Artistas)" I asked my Boy Friends stand on this matter. Walang nagsasalita sa una. Nag-iisip pareho. And then after several minutes .. they said ... YES! OH EM -_- Iba ata ang inexpect ko ? Ouch! Para sa part ng mga Girls ..I feel disappointed a bit but never judge them. Nagtanong lang naman ako and I should be grateful na sinagot naman nila honestly. So nagtanong ulit ako. "Ok. Baliktarin naman natin. Since you both said YES, so ibig sabihin ayos lang din sainyo na ang Girlfriend niyo ay may magustuhan ding iba while in a relationship sainyo? For example na lang sa kaibigan niyo." "NO!!!" Hala. Automatic ang sagot ah. REALIZATIONS STRIKE!! To tell you honestly, this question came from a story I have read recently. The scenario is this, they have been in a relationship for 3 long years except pa dun sa childhood mem'ries din nila. ...

People come and go .. Dati pag-iniiwan o naiiwan na ako, UMIIYAK AKO. Masakit eh. Yung talikuran ka ng mga taong akala mo ay laging nasa tabi mo sa mga oras na masaya, malungkot, natatakot, nagdiriwang, nagtatampo, naglalambing, at kung anu-ano pa pero iiwan ka rin naman pala. Ilang beses na ba akong iniwan? Marami na kaya hindi na bago sa akin to. People come and go. You must learn to accept that not everyone will stay forever in your life. You must learn to be strong enough para pag-iniwan ka eh nakakatayo ka pa rin. However, value and appreciate those who stays and never left. Love those who truly cares and never surrender on you despite of your unwanted attitudes. Nobody's Perfect! kaya nga may concept ng "death" eh kasi hindi lahat ng nasa mundong ibabaw ay magsstay forever. Sabi nga, "The only permanent in this world is CHANGE." INDEPENDENT ako. Yan yung lagi kong sinasabi. It doesn't mean na nagrebelde ako sa magulang ko kaya natuto akong mag-is...

I rule my own Life ! I am independent! Independently thinking. And I am thankful for having a supportive mother along the way of my development as a fine young lady :) She trusted me in making decisions. She let me decide on my own but not in a way na pinapabayaan niya na ako completely. Yeah. She's not perfect. She was a Monster in my eyes at times,growing up feeling like I've been controlled. So I became .. a Perfectionist. I became selfish, greedy, and mean. Everybody hates me in my Elementary years. An honor student who only excels in Academics, only learns the lessons written on the book, reported by my teachers and read in several books but never learned the lessons in life that living in the society tries to teach. Sometimes I feel like I devoted my childhood years gaining perfection not realizing I'm too young to deal with such mature decisions such as how am I going to be successful in life. I failed many times, afraid of what my mother would say, I invent...

"But you're very lucky Shiela. You were able to experience precious feeling. You're lucky to have Renz and Renz is lucky to have you." Am i really lucky ? Ang makakita ng lalaking ka-match ko sa lahat ng bagay? Ka-mismatch ko sa lahat ng laban dahil lagi akong talo ? Maswerte nga ba ako dahil nakakita ako ng lalaking inaya akong mahalin despite my flaws? Maswerte nga ba ako dahil nakakita ako ng lalaking nanatili sa tabi ko kahit nagbabago na ako? Lalaking sinulit lahat ng pwede niyang maging role sa buhay ko? Mapa-Tatay na wala ako, Kuya na Overprotective sa only sister niya, Mortal Enemy na laging panira ng araw ko, Bestfriend na ginagawa kong Punching Bag pag-galit ako pero siya rin namang magiging Crying Shoulder ko pagtapos ko na ilabas lahat ng sama ng loob ko, at Boyfriend na kahit sobrang hirap ng Long Distance Relationship ay never kong naFeel na wala akong Boyfriend na malapit lang sa paligid ko. Maswerte nga ba ako dahil kahit sobrang manhid ko , napadam...