The Minimalist Diary

I'm drowning into the feeling. And I hate it! It feels suffocating and absurd that one day, I'll have to let it go again. I am feeling lonely right now. Embracing myself because no one would be there to do that for me. I want to be strong but I'm missing him so badly. Its been weeks, and only a week triggers already my fears. I didn't know since when did I develop this kind of fear but I'm afraid for myself. Just how can you feel broken when you are loved ? With all my honesty I gave my heart,AGAIN. And I'm dying inside to how am I able to ever do that again. When I thought I had enough self-love to be selfish enough, he proved me wrong that I couldn't give love more than I thought I could ever be. Just when I thought I was strong enough to control my emotions, I became weak when I'm around him. I'm starting to think he's wearing my adrenaline rush every single time. This is just the beginning. There will be more days where my t...

So I'm taking a short break for a while here bcoz I got this 'new' thing as well from a friend. Taraaaaaaaaaaannn!!! Thank you Bibi Jai for this. :* So ito nga, I'm so excited and overwhelmed as well when she handed me this journal we long waited since we barely see each other. Nakakapressure mga bes! 😅 Way too big than expected. Haha. So I already planned what to write on this since I got tons of emails coming up and I only read the ones that catches my eyes first. Yeah, that's how it goes. I got this subscriptions from sites of my interests like health and fitness, relationship building, uhm.. decluttering and organizing which is one of my favorites already since I'm embracing minimalism and of course, by far my most serious I think, Stock trading. Yep. I am into it BUT I'm not yet literally trading. I'm still learning about it. And speaking of, I already created another gmail account for those kind of emails but I haven't move it...